This week I have hardly done anything.
I have hit a frustrating wall with my project that has overwhelmed me and the fear has paralyzed me. I have come to problems which I can not figure out, and conflicting advice has confused instead of inspired me.
This week I was supposed to start thinking space wise. How will the project actually look? From what I have discovered is there needs to be two parts to the whole.
- There needs to be an area for people to approach and listen to the prerecorded interviews. This are is a public space where people can see others listening and (hopefully) enjoying the recordings.
- There needs to be a private space. This is where I get hopelessly lost in what the best way to go about this is. How do I create a space where people feel comfortable responding to the questions on site? Where would it be? What would it look like? How big does it really need to be? What are my restrictions? What if it is downstairs? Can it be? Do I literally build a room? Is that something that I can actually do?
- Do I really want to give over the microphone to the participants. I know that there is great potential for them to create incredible answers, but letting go of the control that gives me quality wise screams at me to run the other way. To absolutely not do that for the sake of craft that has been drilled into me from day one of entering Judson. Craft is everything. I can’t be successful if I have bad craft. -Something a certain professor here has expressed to me. The risk of letting go one of the only things that I can carries the risk of immense critique I am not sure I can handle.
These things are what I think about. A lot. I think about this project a lot throughout my week. But every time these questions come to mind, my brain just seems to reject. Say “I seriously don’t know. Please stop asking. You keep coming back thinking its going to be different, but it isn’t.” Which makes me frustrated. This is my idea. This is my project. Surly I should be able to figure something out.